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| ok so have you ever known that God told you something but out of your stubbornness and slight rebellion you ignored it until it almost destroys you? well i did that for about 4 weeks and now that i have realized that God IS in control and that no matter what i do or how i do it or what i dont do... he will find me. i know that God has tolf me that i will do many things for him but sometimes i think i let that scare me because i dont wanna screw things up so i run but then i realize that i am doing myself and those around me an injustice by ignoring the things that God is telling me to do because then i am holding them back to and that isnt fair no matter who they are or how they treated me... i just felt that i have come to a new revelation and understanding of really what it is we are supposed to do as christians when God calls us (even if we are scared out of our witts his word says "he will never leave us or forsake us") we should grab it by the horns and hold on because when we step into what he has destined us for there is no turning back and no letting go. because when we really submit to his will he will take us and change the world... i dont know if anyone needed to hear that or if i am just preachin to the choir but God is good. God is faithful. and even when things suck or get hard and it seems like we are the only ones who give a care he is still there waiting for us to call on him and to listen to his voice... well i am home back in the states, and i will soon be heading off to florida then to Europe for a month God is good and he has lots planned for all of us if we just let him have control and do it ... God bless! toni.  | | |
| well here i am... Guatemala. gettin brown, eatin good, sleepin great, and servin tha LORD!! yeah what more could you ask for? actually i am really enjoying it here. God is good, and faithful like always! we have had some amazing ministry time here... well short but sweet. time for more business!
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| wow! so it has been almost a whole year since i have written here.
but there is something going on with lots of people around me. suddenly everyone is becoming aware of their spirituality or lack there of... and it is becoming seemingly harder for all of us to "draw closer to GOD"...
some of the most spiritually strong people around me appear to be struggling with their walk and covenant with GOD.
i graduate from college in less than 2 weeks and tho i am extremely excited i am also becoming more and more afraid. although i have studied the Bible for the last three years and i know that God/Jesus/the Holy Spirit will never leave me and that even when i dont feel worthy they are always there.
God has called me to be a missionary and i am diving in head first, but there is always those questions that linger in my mind..."what if i fail? what if i dont hear you?" perhaps this is a war. a war that has been being fought for ages between good and evil. light and darkness. heaven and hell. flesh and the spirit. i know that my God stands at my side and the side of all of His children. even when we dont feel Him. He is there. there are moments in each of our lives that we will come to that hypothetical fork in the road at which the decision will have to be made to follow the road less travelled or the beaten path. but what i do know for sure (and this isnt just for me it is for my friends who are dealing with all kinds of crap right now) that which ever path we choose, with God on our side nothing can overcome us because His word says that we WILL overcome by "the Blood of the Lamb, and the word of our Testimony" and the truth is He pulled us out of this "muck" once he will do it again and again. and tho pain is easily forgotten, love is hard to forget. nick kristina lindsey sam isaac you all have been placed in my life and each others lives for a reason. and all of us in our weird and twisted yet humorous ways are all bound together by one thing and that is the love of God in all of us, His Holy Spirit, and this strange little thing called "friendship". you all mean alot to me and i will always be there for y'all just as much as y'all are there for me. ok i feel like i have rambled long enough, maybe this will mean something to someone. if it does let me know cuz it is just my heart laid out there and i want you to know that tho we seem simplistic our lives are very complex. deuces y'all im out! | | |
| well well well long time no type... hey folks hows life?... well mine is alright except for the fact that i threw a rod in my engine last week for all of you who know what that means that is all that matters no need in further explaination...
anywho i miss talking to everyone and this is the closest i can get.. so only ONLY did i say ONLY but the grace and mercy of our Heavenly Father did i pass this semester because we all know how much i didnt deserve it, He must have some amazing AMAZING crazy outrageous WONDERFUL plan for my life that is unfathomable! thats all i can come up with. and i think it may have something to do with me finishing my education here and going onto the field the big M field...yep yep Missionary Field! what what?
i think last thing i said to all of you was that i broke my ankle this summer in Poland, well after several months of it not healing right and after several prayers for God to heal my foot i had almost given in to the pain and just decided that i would just suck it up and do all that i could to serve Him even if i had to do it with a limp. and God sent a musician to minister to my drama ministry team and God used him to profesy into my life and heal my foot ... hey let me let you in on a little secret... shhhh.... come closer... listen... "GOD ROCKS!" i can now dance like i was and perform for Him without the limp.
and before we know it folks i will be heading into my last semester at CFNI getting ready to graduate and who knows from there...well i will be going to Poland and France again (God willing) and ministering in Europe this summer... i hope to go to Korea for Spring Break but thats all hopes right now cuz i gotta raise money to go on my mission trip and work... but one day i will be back for sure! well time is tickin and dinner is cookin!!!! GOTTA GET MY GRUB ON!!!
I LOVE YOU!
toni  | Currently Listening
Rent (1996 Original Broadway Cast)
By Jonathan Larson, Jeff Potter, Anthony Jackson, Daniel A. Weiss, Ira Siegel, Kenny Brescia, Steve Skinner, Adam Pascal, Aiko Nakasone, Anthony Rapp, Byron Utley, Daphne Rubin-Vega, Fredi Walker, Gilles Chiasson, Gwen Stewart, Idina Menzel, Jesse L. Martin, Kristen Lee Kelly, Rodney Hicks, Stevie Wonder, Taye Diggs, Timothy Britten Parker, Wilson Jermaine Heredia
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| ok so im back and it was awesome i'll try to post some pics later but i just wanted all of youz guyz to know im back safe with only minor injuries.(cracked bone behind my ankle, everything in my foot/ankle is sprained as well) thanks for all of your prayers i'll let ya know what went on when i have more time.
love ya
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